Do you ever wish that there could be a product recall, for your husband..?
Like a husband recall?
Where you could just package him back up, return him to where you found him and then go back home alone.
That feeling of relief that you no longer have a potentially dangerous product in your home, that could break at any moment and cause you harm.
Or maybe it wasn’t dangerous, but just not a great fit for you, so being able to return it quibble free is equally relieving.
I used to often think that the answer to all my marital problems, would be to just go back in time and not marry my now ex-husband (and if I could keep my kids then that would be perfect).
That seemed to me to be the only solution that didn’t involve any drama, heartache or future suffering.
But clearly that wasn’t an option outside of my imagination.
So instead, I continued to agonise over the decision of whether or not to leave my marriage without ever really coming to a solid conclusion.
And when I did finally make a decision, I realised how I could have easily made that same decision much, much earlier, if only I’d known this one simple truth.
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Because let’s face it, although it sounds like a great idea, the husband recall is never going to happen is it?
We’re going to have to deal with this one ourselves...
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So..it's my birthday tomorrow.
I don't actually have that much planned, a birthday meal with the kids, lots of cake...and probably a bit more cake just for good measure.
What I don’t have planned however, are tears.
Unless of course they're tears of happiness at how much cake there is 😉
But on a serious note....just a few years ago, tears were definitely on the menu when it came to my birthday.
Back then I was still in an abusive marriage. And though you make initially think that the tears came from experiencing abuse that day, they actually came from something else..
Beautiful, heartfelt (?) apologies, written in stunning, hand-made birthday cards. Filled from top to bottom, in small, neat handwriting. Line after line of sweet words, apologies, promises and hopes for the future.
The first few times that I received cards like this, I believed every single line that was written inside them.
For someone who was pretty much illiterate, he'd gone to such an effort to write out all of all those words that pleaded for forgiveness and a fresh start for our relationship. I genuinely thought wow, he really means it this time. I really wanted to believe that someone wouldn't just write all these words and not mean them.
But time would pass, as it does, and as the saying goes..actions speak louder than words.
And boy did they speak louder.
The abuse never stopped. Maybe he'd be better behaved for a week or two, but as anyone that's gone through anything similar to this will have noticed, a cycle of abuse was always there, ticking along in the background.
The phase of apologies and promises of a better future would soon move into the next phase of abuse when they see that you're not conforming to whatever rules they want you to. And inevitably this would lead to the next incident of abuse. And then the apologies would emerge again. And so the cycle would continue..
The last time I received one of these beautiful, handmade and handwritten cards, I did cry.
I cried because I knew it was all lies.
I cried because I knew that he didn't mean a single word of it. That all those small, neat lines of handwriting meant absolutely nothing. They may as well have been written in Chinese. They were nothing but empty words.
And so I cried on that birthday.
Because I knew deep down, that things would never improve.
And a few months later I left the marriage for good. Because not only did things not improve, they got a whole lot worse.
Thankfully, I no longer have to experience this sadness and disappointment on my birthday anymore, or any day for that matter.
And if for any reason I do end up crying tomorrow, then it'll probably be because I'm so happy that I can stuff myself with cake all day long, totally guilt-free.
And I'll take that over an abusive, unhappy marriage any day of the year.
Happy birthday to me ❤
P.S. Why should only the birthday girl get gifts? For this weekend only, I'm going to gift five 1-1 relationship breakthrough sessions with me. These usually cost £97 but hey, it’s my birthday and I'll give away free breakthrough sessions if I want to 😉
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If you've ever come across a poem by Rumi, you'll know that his writing was deeply spiritual and full of love and insight.
However, he also had a great sense of humour..check out the following piece of relationship advice:
"Here is a relationship booster that is guaranteed to work: Every time your spouse or lover says something stupid, make your eyes light up as if you just heard something brilliant"
And 3...2...1...eye roll..
Rumi was a deeply spiritual person...so could he have meant something else by this statement?
Could he have possibly known the truth of the Inside-Out Paradigm, of where our feelings actually come from? Did he realise that when we say 'stupid' things to our partner, that we're just innocently lost in the Outside-In illusion and in that moment, can't see the truth of where our feelings are actually coming from?
I'm guessing that he did..
And if like Rumi, we were able to see this truth, how different would our relationships be?
If we could see that our spouse had just momentarily lost sight of the truth and innocently believed that something other than their own thinking had the power to make them feel anything; then perhaps we would be more compassionate and look at them as if they had just said something brilliant. Perhaps we'd be less quick to dismiss them or argue with them, but instead find logical ways to work through whatever challenge or issue they were facing.
Rumi rahimu-Allah, was definitely deep.
And although he didn't leave behind a School of Relationships (how amazing would that be) - I've got the next best thing.
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If your Facebook newsfeed is anything like mine, you'll have noticed that more and more people are posting 'positive thinking' style, uplifting memes.
Whatever challenge you're going through - there's a meme for that.
Some of the inspirational advice that I believe has the opposite effect however, is when people are told to be grateful for their situation because others have it worse.
Now at face value it appears to be sound advice.
Comparing ourselves to others who are worse off should theoretically cause us to be more appreciative of our own situation and circumstances.
However, if you've been through a really challenging time and are struggling to be grateful, what can actually happen upon reading advice such as this, is that you feel even worse for being such a bad person that you can't even feel grateful for what you do have. Comparing yourself to people who have far less does nothing to lift your mood and so you feel worse about yourself and sink into feeling even lower than before.
There should only be one uplifting meme on Facebook and it should say this:
'You're only ever feeling your thinking'
Now at face value, this may not automatically solve all of the problems you're experiencing in life.
And that's exactly why I created a five-part online training programme, that takes this one simple statement, but with it digs deep so that you can see the truth of it in your own life.
And when you see this simple truth, something really nice starts to happen.
Your mind becomes so much quieter that you naturally become more thankful and express this gratitude to Allah every day. You no longer need to be forced to be grateful, you just are. Because you now understand the simple truth of how your mind actually works.
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For anyone that's into personal development, you may think it's strange that I'm telling you that it's OK to be sad.
I mean surely the whole point of self-development is so that we can be happy more of the time? We want less of the negative feelings and more of the positive feelings, right?
But here's why I believe that the focus shouldn't be on the 'positive' and 'negative' feelings, but rather, on the source of these feelings. Because when we understand the true source of our feelings, we can experience a different type of 'negative' emotion. We start to:
- Feel hurt without feeling heartbroken
- Feel sad without feeling distraught
- Feel lonely without feeling despair
- Feel upset without it needing to drag on for days, weeks or even months
When we realise the true source of our feelings, we experience a peace around even the most 'negative' of emotions.
I use inverted commas because I don't actually believe there are negative and positive emotions. These feelings are all neutral and what we perceive as good and bad feelings are actually a normal part of life. If the Prophet PBUH experienced every single emotion out there, then we know its sunnah (tradition) to also experience the same.
But there's a small but very important distinction in how we experience them.
When we know the true source of our feelings, we welcome these moments and stop looking at them as negative feelings. We experience them for what they are and avoid slipping down the slippery slope to despair, heartbreak and depression.
We're no longer battling against ourselves to stop experiencing the 'bad' and trying so hard to experience more of the 'good'.
Because there is good in it all and it's this understanding that allows us to experience life events such as the death of a loved one, in an entirely different way. In a way that brings us ease, peace and grace in the most challenging of circumstances - and with this comes a deeper connection with Allah.
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It's designed to help you have a more beautiful relationship - with yourself. And I've made the first module available here for free 🙂
P.S. And if you needed any further convincing, here's my favourite poet Rumi with a strikingly similar message 😉
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, depression a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes,
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honourably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
Who isn't guilty of having one of these....when things don't go to plan, we retreat to the sofa and have an adult version of a toddler tantrum, albeit a quieter and less physically demanding one.
We may sit there silently stuffing ourselves with cake and chocolate, whilst contemplating how rubbish we have it compared to everyone else. We sigh heavily and may even cry at how things are just not working out for us.
We feel so sorry for ourselves.
And if we're not careful, this short and sweet self-pity session can turn into a constant phase of living in victim-mode. Suddenly our self-pity has become a big part of our life to the point where it comes up in conversation with others almost immediately. It's as if we introduce ourselves to others as 'Hi my name is Joe Bloggs and I'm a victim of xyz'.
We may not even realise that this is what we're doing.
What we feel self-pity about, suddenly becomes 'us' and we forget that the real me, our true self, is so far removed from the made-up stories we've been telling ourselves during our self-pity sessions.
You see, no matter what we think about ourselves, none of that made-up thinking can actually take anything away from who we truly are at our core. We are all perfect beings, who sometimes face challenging times, who sometimes make mistakes and slip-up and sin, but get up again and strive for better.
When we pause for a moment and stop beating ourselves up for how things have turned out for us, it frees our mind to instead focus on what we can do right now in this present moment. We end up taking more beneficial action because we're no longer dwelling on the past which no longer exists, or worrying about the future which hasn’t even happened yet.
The only moment that really matters, is this one.
Right now, in this present moment, everything is fine. You are fine. And only your thinking will tell you otherwise.
So, ditch the self-pity session and the beating yourself up and instead start to live life as your highest self. And if you need some help in doing that, then you should probably watch my 5-part online training programme. I've made the first module available for free here.
This is one of my favourite memes.
It rings so true and perfectly sums up the confusion we can feel when we're desperately praying for a sign from above, but then completely fail to see the signs when they are shown to us.
In fact, as Muslims, it's something we fall into regularly whenever we pray the 'Itsikhara' prayer - the prayer of guidance. Where we ask Allah to make a certain path easy for us if it is good for us, and if it is not good for us then to steer us away from it and make us happy with that outcome.
And it's a wonderful prayer, because we are handing our affairs over to Allah, because He knows best and we know not what's best.
But then we get to the tricky part...
How do we then spot any signs that we're not supposed to continue on a certain path? How do we see these signs clearly?
Just as in the meme, a sign can be right there in front of our face, but if we're too emotionally attached then we either won't want to see this sign, or we'll just plain ignore it...
What we're often asking God for, is a sign that tells us that we want to do, is the right thing. And if there are signs pointing in the other, not so desirable direction, then we tend to overlook them or wait for a 'bigger' sign that re-confirms that we really should take that other path.
Anyone notice a pattern here?
I see lots of waiting and lots of not knowing, despite praying and sometimes despite clear signs coming our way..
It's wonderful to pray for guidance and highly recommended, as Allah has infinite wisdom and is the Best of Planners. However, we need to do our part, and make sure we are as clear headed as possible so that we can make sense of any signs or wisdom that are coming to us, that are trying to guide us down a certain path.
Allah always makes it clear which path we should take....we just don't see it sometimes because of our own desires and attachments.
If you'd like to start seeing things more clearly and be more receptive to your own wisdom that's coming from Allah and trying to guide you through your challenges, then I'd like to help.
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Call it a sign that you're meant to take some action today 😉
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One of my all-time favourite TV shows is The Affair.
Apart from the great acting, it has a unique way of playing out its storyline. The events in the show unfold by viewing it through the perspectives of both the main characters, Noah and Alison. Each episode has a Part 1 and a Part 2, and each part gives you their unique perspective on the same events.
It can be both intriguing and very entertaining to see how differently the story is shown from each person's perspective.
The same event is altered to reflect how differently they recall past events and interestingly, how they see themselves and each other.
Whilst watching the most recent episode I got to thinking about how realistic this actually was.
How could they both have sometimes quite different versions of the same event?
But then I realised that this actually happens to us all of the time, without us even realising what's going on. And it's down to a simple truth about how we actually experience life day to day.
We all go through life living in our 'own world'. We throw this statement around a lot without realising just how much truth it holds.
Every day, we get up and experience the same things other people do, but we will have an entirely different experience of it, because we live that experience through our own thoughts. The very nature of thought itself, means no two people can have the same thoughts, or think the exact same way. It's why we can often watch the same movie as other people, but leave the cinema with an entirely different experience of it. Our thoughts create our experience, so when we're in a particular situation, or we're watching a movie, or having a conversation with someone, we're experiencing it all through our own thinking.
And because of this, no two people can have the exact same experience of something.
So with this in mind, the focus can switch from wondering why two people aren't thinking the same thing, and perhaps even thinking that there is something wrong with one of them because of that; to understanding that everyone will always be living in their own separate reality and it's 100% OK if someone doesn't think the same way we do.
When we stop wondering why someone isn't thinking the same way as us, we end up dropping all of the unhelpful thinking and reactions that we may have previously had.
We accept that they cannot think the same way we do, even if we believe it would be better if they did.
The natural consequence of this in our relationships, is that we become better listeners, better communicators and better at just being there and being present with whatever is happening in the moment, rather than wasting our time and energy wondering why our partner does not think or feel the same way we do.
We see through the illusion and accept each other's perspectives, rather than being annoyed by them.
If you’d like to experience this shift in your relationship and learn the secret to dropping so many of the often unnecessary and unhelpful expectations that we have of our partner and ourselves, then you’re going to love this.
Do you ever wonder about this? Do you wonder how you ended up in the life you are in right now, where things just haven’t turned out the way you thought they would? That your marriage is not how you dreamt it would be back when you were young, free and single. Do you reflect on your life and wonder what happened to being with the man of my dreams? What happened to being swept off my feet and saved by my Prince Charming? What happened to my aspirations of living with a great family life where the love for my husband effortlessly grows and blossoms every day? Why aren’t I living happily ever after? Do you then start to wonder that perhaps because your life isn’t like this, that maybe, just maybe, you’re not with the right person and perhaps you should separate so that you can start again and try and have that perfect, blissful marriage
with someone else?
From the moment we’re old enough to understand fairy tales, we are sold a Disney fantasy of how life should and will turn out for us eventually. We will struggle, and then miraculously our Prince Charming will come along and save us. And we will live happily ever after.
As we grow up, we continue to be surrounded by movies and books that sell us the idea of a perfect romance and a perfect relationship that we all then end up aspiring to. And then when we do get married, we naturally start comparing our own marriage to this perfect standard. Unfortunately, as our marriage matures, what then can and does happen is that we grow bitter and resentful that the man we have at home, no longer looks like the man of our dreams and is not similar in any way, shape or form to the image of the man that we are consistently exposed to and which is being sold to us as the ‘ideal’. We may all too often sit there, silently judging our spouse for not living up to the perfect standard that has been subconsciously indoctrinated into us from such a young age.
But what are we really comparing our husbands to? We’re comparing them to something that does not exist..
I was hanging out with some new mum friends from my son's school the other day, and after a few minutes of chatting we all realised that we were all either divorced, or in the process of separating.
The conversation soon turned to how relieved each of us were that we were no longer living in unhealthy and unhappy marriages.
One of the mums was relieved that she no longer had to share her house with her ex, another was overjoyed at being able to relax in her garden during the summer evenings without the negative energy in her home that once was. And another was happy that she no longer had to fight over the remote control and could watch whatever she wanted on TV.
I on the other hand, got to thinking about how peaceful life really was now that I was on my own and no longer living in an abusive and toxic relationship. It reminded me of a poem that I wrote soon after leaving my ex which I turned into a video animation (you can watch it below).
There is so much to be said for living life in peace. But we don't always have to leave our partners to experience this, especially if we if what we really want is to save our marriage - and especially if our marriage isn't abusive or toxic.
There is something else in life which gives us this feeling of peace and contentment. A simple understanding that has to potential to change how you experience life and give your relationship with yourself and your partner, the best possible chance to grow and flourish.
I've created a five-module online training programme that will get you well on your way to experiencing this peace and contentment in your life on a daily basis. And I've made the first module available completely free.
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